She was Only Three

It all started back in December of 2009 when my 3-year-old daughter told me and her grandma that her uncle had hurt her "cat." We called her doctor and she told us to go to the E.R. to get her checked out. She did show signs of sexual abuse, and as a single mother my first reaction was to just cry.

We’ve had to change our lives around and go through court but nothing is settled. They want to put her on the stand to testify at the age of 4. I don't see why they can't use the DVD recording that she first did when they interviewed her. She told them what happen and who did it. I find it hard to subject my daughter to sitting on a stand and telling everyone what happened to her. She is so afraid of men now. I am not allowed to see the DVD recording until our court date and I know seeing my child on this TV in the court house telling everything that happen to her will tear me apart. I just don’t know if I will be able to hold myself together.

She is enrolled in the local CAC group and she is doing great with that. She is also in school, but my biggest fear is about what will happen when she grows up. Is she going to have problems? I have searched the internet for what helps the parent that is going through everything I am. I feel like at times I just blame myself, wondering why I didn’t catch this. Why I didn't noticed her attitude change. It hurts as a mom and I do blame myself even though it’s not my fault. But to see my little girl go through this, and to watch it affect her in school and in everyday life… I just want to yell at times, but I know it won’t help. Some times I find myself crying every day just knowing that he took her innocence away from her. I never understood why this was happening. But I know God says that He never puts a burden on someone that they can’t handle. But as a single mom I just keep everything inside and it feels like I am going to explode. My daughter is my life, heart, and soul. It kills me this has happened. All I know is that she and I need to take this one step at a time.



CFC# 11571