They Were Enough!
My maternal grandfather began sexually abusing me as early as I can remember. The abuse continued until he died when I was 8 years old. I grew up extremely introverted and fearful of people. I believe I attempted suicide at 4 years old because I thought I was a "ruined girl" and wanted to start over. I swallowed as many pills as I could find before I was taken to the hospital where my stomach was pumped. I have no relationship with any family members because of this. They have called me a liar. I felt it best to stay away from them because it feels as though I am being punished for bringing this to light. My only support is my twenty-one-year-old son and my father who passed in 1990. They were enough! I thank God for them daily! Looking back at my life I see how this impacted me. I was diagnosed with severe depression and alcoholism. Since I severed ties with my family I no longer feel the need to drink. I have found different ways to define myself instead of "victim:" I am a MOM, musician, artist, a lover of people, animals, and life. I AM A SURVIVOR!